Hopeless Romantic

I'm just a hopeless romantic hoping in the one thing that seems hopeless but the true hopelessness is to loose hope in the very thing your hoping for love. I hope to find you hoping and praying wishing on hopeful stars hoping my hope isn't a waste or in vain me and hope go way back to 3rd grade hoping if I pass this love note to the beautiful girl named hope with the pig tails the teacher hopefully wont take it hoping this pretty thing circles yes hopes of getting a walk home after school I still remember the smell of her hair grease as the sun shined on her mahogany scalp it was better than gold time passed we kicked it through junior high I was there the day she came to school with a bloody dress cause her daddy had a rough night and he had to much to drink and she was at the wrong place at the wrong time innocence snatched we both cried. I could only hope to catch him slipping one day and show him no mercy hope. It was a long summer and we didn't talk much I heard she had stayed those long hot months with her grandmother hoping she would return high school came all I could hope is to see her. 3rd period p.e. there she be a little older now hoping she remembers me hoping her touch feels the same she smiles when our eyes locked walks over and all heaven and earths collide in my stomach forgetting we in the middle of a dogde ball game I eat one in the face hoping she ain't see it hoping it don't leave a mark she helps me up hoping I'm OK and at that moment romance and hope intercoursed like 3rd grade all over. We sit and talk she tells me her dad facing some years her grandma had passed and she conceived a child from a dead beat in her past explained to me how he use to beat her abuse her and all she could hope for was a hug or a smile from me. I couldn't speak Hiroshima and Nagasaki blew inside me she said her hope in good men was renewed after she saw me and yes time passed we got closer and college came she went away I attended Cp she took pride in them aggies we talked every night being ushered in by grind-time she said her hopes is that ill be here forever hopefully we can possibly spend eternity together all I could think is if I ever had lost hope in what seemed hopeless I wouldn't have felt the essence of her being next to me again cause me and hope go way back and when hope is lost remember be hopeful she will come back again graduation night hope was scheduled to come back to the city in the am ain't it amazing how life changes in the blink or wink she never made it back that week. Maybe my hope was too weak fight breaks out at the party hope and her friends try to diffuse this time bomb before it explodes when he pulls out a 38 and I always knew my world revolved around her stray hits dead in the face I could have only hoped it was just a Dodge ball I couldn't run across a war zone of junior high Dodge ball game to check and see if she was OK I'm miles away. Hope never rose that day call me a hopeless romantic cause I still kiss her face and still feel her touch till this day still smell third grade hair grease clinching pig tails for life she clinched on to hope for life that day hope died. Leaving behind hopeless men who were touched by her lives I confess I'm just a hopeless romantic peace.